Life at the moment

Briefly i have been workin for windsor plywood for over a month now. Zac joined and we finally got a chance to chat. everything in life seems okay. i need to talk to aunt Cathy. greenhouse should be done by the end of the month. my upcoming experience for KRG is a big deal. i wan to chant many hours before so i can break through and deliver something worthwhile. it may be easy if o wrote a good script. my life starts in 94 in Vancouver. my parents met by mutual friends in buddhism. my mum chanted a lot and we attended many meetings, fondly remembering Naito's in Stn. square Burnaby. chess, lego, green tea and cakes+ birthday celebrations and good energy. moving to saltspring. distance from Buddhism, still attrnd meetings regularly. i did not grasp the potential of practice pr study to create positive change on my life. my brothers faith became strong in highschool and i witnessed it. but attribute it to his strength, not realizing i could have the zame faith. wen he died of course i could only chant, for a lon time. i realized i needed to do something to busy my body and mind. i got a concrete job and got physically stronger. my faith regressed at this point and i devoted less time to practice. i remember the times fondly in my first autumn without Justin, who loved autumn. the times when my faith was bold and i went to mens conference at Caledon, making surely to meet every man and talk to each one. i would chant extra at each opportunity for hours. but that was the past and recently. i have been feeling happier and more regular. my life condition has improved in sometimes seemingly intangible ways. the welcoming that i recieve from the people who work with me at Windsor is always good. three important people left after i joined, including 2 drivers so i have been delivering, a fairly simple job that puts me in contact with many types of people and shows me parts of the island. it gives me eyes into the world of home building on SaltSpring as we supply almost every contractor. my Toso that has been 5days a week , 30 minutes 630-7 has been the source of confidence and happiness. last year i wanted somechange and i knew chanting was the medicine that could achieve it . instead of periodic flashes of strong Faith in the past, where I would chant a lot once and not again for awhile, i wanted consistent faith, so i could introduce others from the perspective of a consistent practioner of Nichiren Buddhism.I am really sure nowthat the Gohonzon has the plan for my life. after everythin